I was going to name this "An Assortment of [insert subject of blog here]", but then I realized that I complete forgot what I had written

I am going into this with only the slightest inkling of what I want to talk about.

This should be interesting.

Although that's kind of what I do with a lot of my writing. I don't really plan that far in advance unless I get a good idea and try to expand on it (try being the operative word).

Also, I just noticed that I wrote "talk" about rather than "write" about. I guess that shows how heavily I place importance on my writing, because it is my clearest voice to speak with. I can refine it, pour my soul into it, think on it long into the night, thesaurus-ize it until I'm satisfied with it. Or show my pure procrastination and laziness by not touching it at all. Whatever I write, it is who I am and what I am feeling or want to be feeling at the time.

Ok, insightful point number one hit. Whoo.

But I need to write about something more clearly connected to class. Hmm..

Ok, got something. But that's depressing. If people are actually reading this blog they're seriously going to think I'm heavily depressed because all I talk about are depressing things about my life and how I need to fix myself. But that's not what I'm really trying to say, I'm just trying to discover things about myself more fully. And the depressing stuff is better expressed on paper then dwelled on in my mind.

Ok, here we go.

So we were in class, and talking about our first project and I brought up the fact that mine's kind of written and been revised a few times already but I don't know if I want to share it. No, I do know I want to share it, I just don't want certain people to read it. Wait, no, I do want everyone to read it, but I'm kind of afraid of how they'll react, what they'll think, if they'll understand the references. Because if certain people recognize the references, I could be screwed, or in bliss. Ugh, decisions suck.

So I really like what I've written. But I'm really kind of worried about it. I don't particularly want to say it out loud either. Well, actually, I probably would, I just want to polish it a bit first.

Oh wow, so I'm kind of concluding that this isn't so hard after all.

But, oh yeah. I'm kind of feel like I'm not doing the same research as everyone else. It was so easy to write up my project, but it's very hard to edit and choose what to omit and include and make letter-like and keep creative-fiction-y. So maybe that counts? I'm doing research into my soul. Oh..I just had a thought of some other side of the story I could have gotten when I realized that this isn't my journalism class, and I'm not writing up an article trying to be fair. This is my story from my point of view, and I will show it from my point of view. Screw being fair.

This is probably an extremely random blog post and I apologize. I could probably go on and on some more but I won't.

Wishing you the best,
~Dale B.